Posts Tagged: patience

The In-Between.

There are days when I just want to segment every aspect of my life, freeze time, and get my shit done. Unfortunately, that is not possible. Needless to say, I’ve been a very, very busy person lately, and I have a hell of a lot of loose ends that need to be tied up as quickly as possible. I’m leaving for San Diego in two days and I’m not even remotely ready for it (I think I have about 7 pounds of laundry to take care of first, and then I need to figure out if anything fits me anymore… I’m not done yet.

patience, oh patience.

A confession: I strive for patience, but I am not very good at it. Some of my family members think that I am the patron saint of patience, but they are wrong. I’m just very good at being quiet and becoming inwardly frustrated. There’s a lot of things that I want to happen RIGHT NOW, or that I wish would happen, but the reality is that might not happen the way I want it to. I rarely demand; I find that takes more energy than it’s worth. Then again, so does frustration. Tonight, I went to see Ellie Goulding’s acoustic… I’m not done yet.

Up to now.

Day 35 – yes, I’m writing this early because I can only sleep for 6 hours at a time – is about rejoicing in the journey that is healing. If it’s hard, that’s cool. If there’s progress, awesome! If you slide backward a bit, no worries. It’s ALL okay. I guess it’s good that I have a reminder that I’m right where I need to be, because it’s all a part of something better. Of course it won’t naturally happen, it takes effort and time and patience and grace. I have only about 50% of those qualities on a normal… I’m not done yet.